Malutkamo's Journals

.. its been awhile..

.. so here i go again.. :)

.. i want to let you know, my friend, hope you dont mind me put my balck thoughts over your white, pure, innocent head.. i got up this morning not knowing.. not feeling.. not breathing.. opended my eyes and him, blue, only one, so real not mine, her.. touching my leg, breathing my name out loud.. him again.. him... left.. took my sock.. left.. dream.. innocent, horny, dream..

.. i can see now theres no tomorrow..

.. love ..

.. its time to leave you..

.. sucking my thumb.. dream about you covers my eyes.. you.. ehhh.. orion

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I will have a surgery today... Am I scared?? Like hell....

love you all !!!

\m/

Monika

broken...

do you believe in destiny?

do you believe that everything happens for the reason?

i want to know who is designing my life?

some crazy architect... you misscalculated me!!!!

today is my birthday.... :(

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yes... i had a smoke today..... don't even ask..... i need a hug... anybody?

so........whats now.............?

is it possible a friendship between a guy and a girl?

or one of the side is pretending.... like he did.... why cant we just be friends? why is it too painful for him ? why did he tell me that he can not see me anymore? i just lost somebody special.... but i am who i am and i do not pretend... im gonna miss him, but if being just my friendis too much for him then im sorry..... life is something i would never learn .....

3 years.... we have been friends for 3 years.........and he cant see me anymore......... gowno prawda

date

I havent been dating for a really loooooong time. It is hard for me to find the time for that. Full time student and full time work its hard to even breath... anyway, i finally went out last night and God, i dont know if was me or the guy, but that was the worse date ever!!! im not going to write about all the details, but i im going to pass on dating for another 100 years!

hymmm... maybe it is me? cuz the guy was not that bad...

ash tree

Ash Tree (Ambition) -- extremely attractive, vivacious, impulsive, demanding, does not care for criticism, ambitious, intelligent, talented, likes to play with fate, can be very egotistic, reliable, restless lover, sometimes money rules over the heart, demands attention, needs love and much emotional support.

I FOUND IT ON artsytypegirl BUZZ. AM I REALLY LIKE THAT??

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i don't want you to adore me...

don't want you to ignore me...

that's all....

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.... and i'm only here to bring you free love

let's make it clear that this is free love

no hidden catch, no string attached

just free love...